it’s 10 o’clock

“This is the dream - we’re going to get this sensational footage of the giant squid trying to do obscene things with the camera.” http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/science/nature/3114124.stm

I used to cup my hands around my eyes and push my face onto the mirror in the downstairs bathroom. It was the 1980’s and having a mirror from floor to ceiling was a high priority. I would look left, right, and quickly back into the center. I was trying to see if I could move faster than my reflection, to really truly see a another person’s perspective of what I look like. I felt like no matter how long you look at yourself in the mirror, you only really see a piece. I look at my mouth. I look at my eyelashes. I look at my chin and compare it to my dad’s. But I can never see my whole face, the way I can see my mom’s or the kids in my class at school. Because -this- person is the aggregate of their parts, where I am only an arm, an eyeball, and a tongue. This experiment was also created by fear. After recently watching one of the Poltergeist movies, I had to confirm that my sum of parts in the mirror wasn’t watching me while I was not watching it. So I would try to catch secret glimpses and confirm that I was not in danger.

songs evolve, i do not.

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when you
roll over in the morning
and squint at the sun touching you
between your shades

what are the things that you love

what are the things that you care about

is it fine that i name it things
is it fine that ask this at all